Out of Shape and Out of Sorts

7:38 PM Kelly 1 Comments

Ever since I got off track last August, I have been completely unable to recommit. I will go back to Weight Watchers, start over and lose weight and then I gain it back and then some. Same scenario with exercise. I will commit to spinning/running/personal training and have a good run and something sets it off.

I know I only have myself to blame and I wish that it was easier to create the habits that I had before. Back during my successful period of weight loss, I had a workout/Weight Watchers buddy Melanie. We became good friends outside of the gym as well. I went to class knowing she would hold me accountable, we would go out to healthy dinners and would share our stories at the weigh-ins. Money was tight and I decided to switch to a cheaper more local gym. After three months of not working out, I realized that I needed to go back to Healthy Fit where I was comfortable and happy. I went back and Melanie was at a different gym. I think not having that partner-in-crime did make it harder to get into my routine.

Last Thursday, Melanie and I met up for a hike and recommitted to each other and our weight loss mission. We are back at the same gym and have went back to weigh-ins at the same time. Since then we have met up for a second hike, a cardio dance class and most recently, boot camp.

This boot camp class was absolutely a wake up call! First of all, there was only 2 other people in the class with us so we couldn't even blend in. The first five minutes of the class I was concerned that I may be going into cardiac arrest, I kid you not. I couldn't keep up. I was exhausted, couldn't do half of what the trainer asked. When we had to do side planks, forget about it. That was humiliating as I planked for like 2 seconds and rested on my side the other 43. Last summer I was in tough classes and standing in the front keeping up. How could I have let myself go so far?

Melanie and I both felt miserable after the class. I got in my car, called my husband Arniel and just started crying. I just felt so low. I am not a person with confidence issues but right now I am completely rattled. I have to stop looking back and focus on new beginnings.

This picture is of Melanie and I last Memorial Day. I cannot wait to get back in that shape!!